Hi. Still here :)

Clarity.

Now that's a comforting word.

Lately it has been getting harder and harder to experience a single ounce of it. Not even when i'm singing to myself in the shower. Even as I am typing this entry, there are countless thoughts and ideas flying through my mind, bouncing off the walls of my skull, colliding with each other, exploding, reforming and very seldom harmonizing.

It's not very often that I get to take a break and experience a single second of clarity. The idea of just laying myself down, closing my eyes, and picturing nothing in my mind seems to be a privilege nowadays compared to everything else that has been happening.

Sometimes I believe that there are two people who exist inside me. Whenever i'm lost in my own thoughts and preoccupied with personal contemplation, my body is doing something else and is actually getting my work done for me. I can spend countless hours writing and finishing a lab report but still feel as if I haven't started it. There's only one explanation for this: my body's moving way too fast for my mind to handle.

It's a weird concept, right? But it's still interesting.

I guess that's why I still have an affinity for Philosophy despite the verbal beatings that everyone receives courtesy of Thomas K. Seung. That's also probably why i'm considering Law (laugh it up, i'm so punny) school as an alternative to my once linear Med School path. Recently I made a trip home to Trouble-town and had an early birthday celebration with my parents. During our dinner, I broke the news that I may not want to become a doctor after all. Needless to say, they had the same reactions that any stereotypical Asian parents would have. Even though they were hesitant,however, they told me that they'd support me (probably because I mentioned patent law) no matter what I did. It's always nice to get reassurance from people closest to you.

Maybe I'll do both medicine and law. Dr. Law sounds fucking awesome.

Goodnight.

I really should update this more often.

Hacked.

Pour some burn sauce on that wound. Double whammy.

-Hui