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Saturday, April 5, 2008
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Yeah I know...
The other day I came to the realization that one of the main reasons why my blogging ventures fail is that I'm too much of an indifferent and lost person at times.
Here are some problems that I realized need work:
1)Making plans with people: During high school, I was always the one who planned things out. Whether it was hanging out, organizing functions for clubs, or contriving large scale excursions, I was one to incite and act. But one thing I realized that has changed about me is that I am just too damn lazy to do things in college. Whether it is calling up a friend whom I haven't seen in ages in order to catch up or simply returning a person's phone call, my head seems elsewhere. If It ever seems that I am just ignoring you or shrugging you off my shoulders, chances are I did not mean to do it. This is something I need to work on.
2) Sense of direction: A couple days ago, my cousin and I got into a heated debate about Ron Paul and his policies. No, this wasn't a substantial debate between two clashing ideals. It was more of a debate between my apathy and his interest of politics and Ron Paul. Somewhere along the lines of our yelling, he asked what was the point of going to college if I didn't have any opinions or firm resolutions. This struck some kind of string inside me. The remark certainly angered me but at the same time I couldn't give him a decent reply. A lot of people talk about finding themselves in college and here I am in the second semester of my second year doing things that don't seem to clearly define who I am and what I stand for.
3) Future plans: Freshman year was great. I was driven, motivated, and intent on pursuing a career as a surgeon. Things have changed since then. Instead of focusing only on things that may affect my future career in the medical field, I've been partaking in different things that interest me to a certain point but that's it- they're not enough to extend to a higher level of interest that will keep me happy in the future. And if you know me, i'm sure that you've heard me talk about changing my major at least once or twice this year.
I guess the point to consider right now is whether or not i'm genuinely interested in something. There's usually nothing that's attached to the mentioning of my name. While some people may have titles like "oh! the basketball player," or "ah, she's really interested in nutrition," I figured that the response to my name is something along the lines of "Oh...who?" At this point, I don't think I've found my calling or forte- and it's starting to worry me. Maybe I shouldn't, but it's definitely caught my attention.
Here are some problems that I realized need work:
1)Making plans with people: During high school, I was always the one who planned things out. Whether it was hanging out, organizing functions for clubs, or contriving large scale excursions, I was one to incite and act. But one thing I realized that has changed about me is that I am just too damn lazy to do things in college. Whether it is calling up a friend whom I haven't seen in ages in order to catch up or simply returning a person's phone call, my head seems elsewhere. If It ever seems that I am just ignoring you or shrugging you off my shoulders, chances are I did not mean to do it. This is something I need to work on.
2) Sense of direction: A couple days ago, my cousin and I got into a heated debate about Ron Paul and his policies. No, this wasn't a substantial debate between two clashing ideals. It was more of a debate between my apathy and his interest of politics and Ron Paul. Somewhere along the lines of our yelling, he asked what was the point of going to college if I didn't have any opinions or firm resolutions. This struck some kind of string inside me. The remark certainly angered me but at the same time I couldn't give him a decent reply. A lot of people talk about finding themselves in college and here I am in the second semester of my second year doing things that don't seem to clearly define who I am and what I stand for.
3) Future plans: Freshman year was great. I was driven, motivated, and intent on pursuing a career as a surgeon. Things have changed since then. Instead of focusing only on things that may affect my future career in the medical field, I've been partaking in different things that interest me to a certain point but that's it- they're not enough to extend to a higher level of interest that will keep me happy in the future. And if you know me, i'm sure that you've heard me talk about changing my major at least once or twice this year.
I guess the point to consider right now is whether or not i'm genuinely interested in something. There's usually nothing that's attached to the mentioning of my name. While some people may have titles like "oh! the basketball player," or "ah, she's really interested in nutrition," I figured that the response to my name is something along the lines of "Oh...who?" At this point, I don't think I've found my calling or forte- and it's starting to worry me. Maybe I shouldn't, but it's definitely caught my attention.
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